We've all seen the iconic windmills of the eastern plains providing water for livestock and families alike. I grew up in a house which water was provided by a windmill. Luckily the wind blew enough that we were not frequently without water, but it did happen. Not a good way to start off the day....needing a shower and no water because the wind hadn't blown enough. Boo.

Last summer Assistant Pack Leader and I went to a farm sale (and we didn't tell Mike). We were the proud owners of a 6 foot windmill and a 8 foot windmill.....driving a Ford Danger. Let me tell you, that just doesn't work. So with little regard to our pride, we called Mike to come rescue us...with a 1 ton flatbed pickup.

This is what we envisioned
 
in search of windmill, for living room, above TV wall if not too high, if that doesn't work, then in office: And thanks to John and Mom visiting and being agreeable to home improvement projects, I ended up with this


Nailed it!

So we kicked of March celebrating my birthday. Nothing like a birthday (thank you Facebook) to get you really jazzed about your friends. I had so many birthday wishes, one can't help but feel LOVED! I think I got a little googly eyed to be honest. Even if Facebook did the reminding, each and every one of the messengers....like 150 plus messengers..... took time to shoot me a text, write on my wall, email, call or send me a message (or flowers!).

Even though I may not talk to my friends on a daily basis or even weekly or monthly....we can just pick up where we left off and life is good.


Thank you for leaving footprints!
Its been a long time since I'd ordered a Stitch Fix box, I'd kinda forgotten about them. Then I saw Football Fan's post about her box and realized that none of my clothes fit anymore and I'm the worst shopper in the world. I can drive to Salt Lake with the intent of shopping all day, spending some major cash and come home with exactly nothing.

All in all, disappointed in this box. I thought since my stylists name was Jennifer too, she could maybe read my mind. In her defense, I did ask for a cute dress to take to the Galapagos Islands with me for on the ship for dinners and such. 


Maxi Dress - super cute and a fun criss-cross back. Maxi material just doesn't work for me though, clings in all the wrong places. I tried this on on a "I'm feeling mostly skinny" day and I can imagine pulling it on after 2 weeks of vacation. Its going back to where it came from.

Necklace - LOVE except it's like "all dressed up and no place to go". I can imagine wearing this like next to never to work. Although I really liked it, I decided for $32, it also should return to it's motherland.


Printed skirt - gag me with a spoon. clingy, weird shape on me and I would never wear it. Going back
Red top - I really liked this one too, but in the end it came down to was I going to spend $100 on 2 shirts and the answer is no, I didn't. I think if I had a dressier office dress code, this would have for sure been a keeper. This one also was sent back.


Black Top - this picture totally doesn't do this top justice. Its full of detail and varying lengths. The back is semi open with the same fund detail. I'm fairly certain I do not own a bra that I can wear with this shirt, but at the time of sealing the return envelope that meant nothing to me. This baby is staying with me. So work....get ready for me to be fancy!

If you wanna get your Fix......use this referral code, you get something, I get something and I'll love you forever!
There will be no rights of passage this year. I can already buy lotto tickets, go to the bar, car insurance has decreases and I can't yet get the senior discount. But its here, 33 years old. Dang, that is getting awfully close to 35 and.....eeeeekkkkkkk......40. A little too close for comfort because I don't feel like I have it all figured out yet and people who are 33 are supposed to have it figured out, their ducks in a row, poop in a group....ya know.

"Every time I think I have my ducks in a row, I turn around & one of those fuckers has waddled off":

I never in a million years envisioned the life I'm living at 33. I thought that by the time I was 33 I'd have a job (which I do), I'd have a husband (which I do not), I'd have at least one little rugrat running around (which I do not), I'd have a house with a yard (which I do), I'd have a dog (which I do) and I'd have a white picket fence (which I do not). Although there is an absence of a few major life events that I thought I would have checked off by the time I was 33, there are quite a few things that I do have that I never even dreamed of and for that, I'm thankful.

I have memories that probably wouldn't have happened if I'd lived out what I thought my life path was going to be to 33.

I wouldn't be the mostly independent girl (still freaks me out to say woman) that I am.
I wouldn't have tried (and loved) mountain biking, wakeboarding and skiing.
I wouldn't have the memories of many weekend trips with friends.
I wouldn't have the experience of moving to brand new states, knowing next to no one.
I wouldn't have hiked a 14'er.
I wouldn't have vacationed in Europe or Hawaii
I wouldn't have a trip to Peru to hike the 28-mile Ancient Inca Trail to Machu Picchu booked.
I wouldn't have a trip to the Galapagos Islands to snorkel and hike booked.
I wouldn't have lost 50 lbs.
I wouldn't have the memories of Birthday Weekends.
I wouldn't have run 1 half marathon, much less 2.
I wouldn't (probably) even live in Wyoming.

Not to say you can't do these things if you are married and have kids and a white picket fence, but I think its a lot harder and I just don't think I would have put forth the effort that I have to do these things. I tend to put others before myself and just thinking about a family makes me realize that they would go before me....so I need to do "me time" before I do the family thing.  There are more than just yourself and your dog to worry about taking care of. Tylie doesn't panic when I up and leave for a couple weeks and don't call.....well she does, but she can't voice that or dial the phone so I pretend like she doesn't panic.

I think a lot about what I don't have, wondering if I'll ever have those things and I question if I am willing to trade my freedom and independence for those things and all I can come up with is....not yet. Could that change tomorrow? Yes. Have I found out completely who I am yet? Not yet.

I like who I am finding in myself, but I think there is more to me than just what's in 33 year old me. And right now who I want to be looks something like this (I think....we will probably have to ask 43 year old me if I was off my rocker in 10 years).

Who I want to be physically - I was to be a strong, fit role model for those around me. I want to lift heavy weights, I want to ski, I want to mountain bike and I want to use health to see the world from places that are off the beaten path. I want to wear cute clothes and not brush my hair. And I want another tattoo. I want to do....not simply be. I want to be pretty and smile a lot. I want to be happy.

Who I want to be emotionally - I want to believe in myself and I want to believe there is good in others. I want to be proud of who I am. I want to be confident and I want to inspire others to be the best version of themselves that they can be. I want to get involved with projects/organizations that I truly believe in, that make the area they serve a better place to live. I want to make a difference in people's lives.

Who I want to be mentally - I want to be more involved in the political process of a Presidential  election.....not like actually volunteering or something crazy like that, but I want to be aware and really research the candidates and make sure my vote counts the way I think it should. I want to be the best person that I can be in my career, even if my career happens to change somewhere down the road. I want to rock the "classes" that I am considering signing up for. I want to learn Spanish. I want to read books (ones with real paper pages) and be up to date on current events.

"The goal is not to change who you are but to become more of who you are at your best." - Sally Hogshead:

on turning 33

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There will be no rights of passage this year. I can already buy lotto tickets, go to the bar, car insurance has decreases and I can't y...
Welcome to another musical addition of Jen’s month! And the playlist to go with it. I try to make an extra special playlist for March, not sure how I’ve done in the past, but this one has some new tunes I’ve recently heard and, of course, some great Red Dirt, so, I have to say I think it’s pretty darn good. See what you think…


Knives of New Orleans, Eric Church
Damn Country Music, Tim McGraw
This Time Around, Randy Rogers Band
My Church, Maren Morris
Rodeo Gypsy, Bart Crow Band 


Happy Birthday Jen!!

Enjoy!